being single.

JayJay, this goes out to u...

i thought of you tonite, something which i havent done in these 2 wks. abang azri, the harbourfront driver asked me how i'm coping being single. it's not easy, definitely not easy. especially when i get to noe new ppl who always try to take advantage of me. it's not like how i was when i was attached and at least i felt safer then.

being single is tuff. yes i had a crush, but howells, i think it was better that me and the crush remain as friends, and since, he wasnt ready for a relationship yet.

and again, i remembered abang azri asking me this. you must ask urself whether you are ready to commit to another person.

frankly speaking, i dunno the answer. I dun want history to repeat itself when i had no time and the relationship just went to waste. I dun want that. You see my schedule, that's enuff to drive guys away from me. hurhur. i dun even haf time for myself sometimes, let alone for others.

but in a way, i do want to be loved. and i want to love too. but i dun wanna rush things.

JayJay,

i missed you tonight. the memories kept playing back in my mind. i asked myself whether i still love you. well, i dun haf any answers but all i noe is that, there will always be a space in my heart for you. 5 months plus wif ya Jay, those memorable nights and watching sunset by the beaches still remain fresh in my mind.

i'm too ignorant abt things. my feelings are numb. all i want is for ur happiness. even if it means letting u go. which, i already did and i guess it was better that way.. tho, sometimes, it just kills me to think of it.

Jay,

thanks for the experience that i had wif ya these 5 months plus. i pray for ur happiness and i hope for the best for ya.

for the crush,

if u're reading this, i'm sorry for my nonsence. won't happen again.


life is a bitch, so screw her.