gawdd

i wonder why the world is so small. eh no, SINGAPORE IS SMALL.

like, my friend's friend is my friend and my friend's friend's friend is her friend. ok. i'm getting confuse.

howells, singapore is small.

speaking of which, i had lunch wif my mum and her friends today. One of which, was Arwah Saiful Aidil's mum. She was still very distraught and i heard of how he died. It was so sad.

I can't imagine like, someone i love pass away. CHOII!! i mean, i was imagining me being in her shoes lah. she was very close to him and honestly, i'm neither close to her nor Him. but from wad i heard they're really close, and it just sucks to lose someone u love and u've been wif Him eversince he was young.

and to all the bikers out there, pls eh.. life is precious. so dun fucking speed ard and hold ur life (or others) in contempt.

well, today.. went JB. and i only realised that my Astroboy msged me at 9 am when it was 6pm! shit. he was telling me abt his promotion. alala kesian baby.. his promotion screwd up coz of the sudden change of criteria. poor baby.. he was upset abt it.. haiz..

hmm.. 3 wks plus being single. i'm coping.. yeh. been on dates and stuff. not liking it that much though. it's different when u're attached. at least u dun change guys. sheesh!

hmm.. but now, i'm really unsure of my feelings. i dun wanna be in love wif anybody but i'm missing them a lot. Like Thabri, Astroboy, Farhan etc.. I really need to figure out my feelings. I mean, who they are to me and stuff. ok.. better do it now..

Thabri: He has and will be my teman bergaduh. I realise that friendship lasts longer than relationhip and i'd rather have a friendship den a relationship wif him coz tts the way things are and will always be between us. =) i like it that way.

Astroboy: That cute face. That babyface. That manjaness. How can u blame me if i fall for him? IF. ahakz. Well, he's just someone i'm very manja wif. I still have not figured it out yet when it comes to him.

Farhan: That charming flairy guy. ahaha. he's like, my counsellor cum gd friend. i said tt he was stuck up at first. nyeh. he's not.. he's a really cool dude.

Fairuz: HAH. Si giant nie. He's my mat jiwang. Gonna have lunch wif him tmr. ahakz.

Well, see wad i mean.. I'm gg out wif like, on average 2 guys per wk. Blardy hell. But of coz, i just treat all of them as friends. I just dun wanna fall in love in the nearest time. Coz i wanna sort out my feelings first.

And after kena lecture my Farhan last nite, i really need to buck up on my self-esteem and self-confidence again. I wanna do it for me, my own happiness. Relationships are nonexistent right now. Unless i can find someone who's as good as JJ and Thabri, then maybe i would consider. But other than that, i guess, relationships are a nono.

haiz.. okay.. i'm gone for now.