but aniways, kak diana has been pestering me to tell my crush that i like him. But i dun want to. I mean, it's just me lah. I'd rather love in silence than face rejection OR lose a very very good friend. sigh.. i dunno arrr. It's like, everytime my hp rings the msg tone, i'll be hoping that it's him. Haiz~
sometimes, i feel like such a hypocrite. like, i want that person to be happy but deep inside, i'm just screaming out that i want him for myself. tts wad happend wif Jumali. And shit, i'm letting it happen to my crush as well.
well, it just so happens that this crush is a good friend of mine. very good friend in fact. and i read his blog the other day and he was like, kinda emo lar. So just now i asked him wad's wrong and he told me uh.
Whoa piang. Sucks ehk. He said he likes this girl who just got single but then that girl still very close to her ex. Diaoz.
So, being a good friend, i tried to console him ar and it sounded as if i'm trying to ask him to go and ask the girl if she likes him or wad.. Blah3..
wtf. Dee! YOU LIKE HIM. den u're talking all this shit. sigghh~
I once told my colleague Chandran, who happens to be my crush's neighbour even b4 i broke up wif Jumali.
Me: Chandran, i feel like, i like *him* more than i like my bf. and i feel that i'm so much closer to *him* than my own bf. it's like, i can talk to him about every single thing.
Chandran: Then break wif your bf lah and tell *him* that you like him.
Me: Cannot lah. Wad if i break wif my bf skali *him* dun like me in that manner. i also like my bf seh.
Chandran: Siao lah you.
and gee.. i usta like him last time when i was wif Jumali, sorry i never mention it b4 coz i was wif Jumali then and it was only ethical that i didnt develop the feelings. But now, Jumali's gone and i'm free to like anyone.
and in the end, somehow or rather, i still end up liking him.
And when i talked to Chandran the other day, and he said
Chandran: Must be *him* right?? You wont be like this if it's another guy
Me: aha.. yeah la..
Chandran: You arr. From last time noe.
Me: haha.. wad to do.. today i'm meeting him.
Chandran: He's sending you back right? See lah2.. He always tell me he has to send you back after work. *laffs*
Me: Haha.. ASS. You busy wif work, he's busy wif work, how can u all meet and talk about me. Bluff lah. He only sent me home once.
Chandran: okay2..
i was like, ergh! He always noes. Damn.
And not to mention that my MOM prefers *HIM* over Jumali. And even told my neighbour that *HE* is my BF when my neighbour asked her about *HIM* sending me home that night. Can you believe my mom said that?! She said to cover me up. Cover?? By saying he's my bf?? Gee. Thanks ah eh.
And ouh yea. Not to mention that my UNCLE is *HIS* colleague. And thanks ah eh. Everytime there's a family gathering, my uncle would ask where he is and how come he didnt come along. GEE.
Haiz.. Loving someone who loves someone else. Gee. That sounds nice. Urgh. Let's just see how it goes.
i edited one pic of me and him.
There you go.
Emo *HIM*. Emo Me.
hint ya once.
somewhere out there, someone might love you more than her.
u never noe.
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