yes, it's over. face it dee.

sigh. dun ask me how. i dun wanna remember all of it. can i have amnesia please?

so it didnt reach the 6 months that i was waiting for. sorry that i couldnt contain my tears anymore. sorry that i had to break down over the phone. there's just so many things i wanna say but it's no use now right?

i noe that i'm busy and that i dun haf the most understanding parents on earth. but it's not fair for you to diss me like that. i cant help it that i'm busy and that i'm going after my dreams of performing. and issit my fault that i'm working so that i'll have money to go out wif you?

sigh.. i guess thats why they say performers always have no life.

so here i am, back being single again. i hope you're happier wif her. thanks minah ite for making me realise my mistakes and realise that i was hurting him. and thanks for making him happy too, something which, i failed to do.

sigh... it's over just like that.

and i'm sorry that i still love you. and that i cant forget you. but aniways, i hope that you'll be happy. that's all that i can wish for you.

and now all those memories, just seem distant. i wasnt prepared for this. i knew things would go wrong but i didnt expect this to happen. jeepers. and i finished my pack of ciggies today. all 20 of em. sigh. i need more ciggies.

well aniways, after that, i was crying so bad and i needed to call someone to pep talk me. so i called thabri aka baby but he was sleeping..

so i called abg man.. den he talked to me and made me stop crying. and his words really made me feel better. and what i rememberd that he said was that.. "Abang percayakan Dian.. I believe in you. If i believe in you, you can also and must believe in yourself." i was kinda touched by that.

and abg man promised me to change me. physically. that shld be smthing. i plan to change my image. yeh. thanks to abg man.

well, i guess this is a new beginning.