i'm TRYING to move on.

sigh..

never go school again today. well, i did lah in a way.

i reached class at 745am coz my dad sent me to school. but then, after some, "surprises" over at friendster, i decided not to continue in class and went off to my 2nd home.

Den went to sit at vac and called my "daddy" up. He was just at Harbourfront. So went to Bora Bora and did some checking of mails and stuff. Then daddy called me and told me to wait at underwater world at 1130. but then i didnt think i could reach there on time so i waited at Imbiah. He wanted to give me money to eat. I didnt want to. But then, he forced me to take. But i didnt expect him to give me $20. i was like, omg.

den after that, went to vac, abg man was there. so went to talk to him and the rest. and he pulled me to the container and talked to me one to one.

and ouh yea, before i went to bora2, i took cik yusof's bus. and while reaching beach station, he said.. if there's anything call him. like, if i need someone to talk to lah. coz he said, he looked at me and he can sense that i got problems but i just keep them in. i just smiled. haiz.. fathers. they can always sense. but for my dad, he sensed it but keeps quiet. haiz..

so aniway, stayed at vac office from 1pm. then my god father cum kembar siam, uncle goh, also sensed tat something was wrong wif me. so i told him what happend. he told me lotsa stuff. all of which, made me feel a lot better.

and then, i went to the back right wif abg man, uncle sunny tan was there. he's a joker. told me and abg man abt how his car tyre overtook his car and stuff. haha.. that really cheered me up.

so den, i waited for uncle goh to tumpang him back to school, and when waiting for him to fingerprint out, cik azri came in.

and he was the one who talked to me abt relationships last time. about how a relationship can never work out if parents dun approve of it. and i guess he was right.

now, i'm just on the road to recovery. i'm glad i went there and got advices and words from the drivers.

i tot of gg there to cry. but in the end, i didnt shed a single tear. which, i was glad that i didnt. gg there really cheered me up a lot. =)

i guess, even though i lost someone i really love, there're always ppl who loves me and treat me like their own daughter and sister. i'm just glad i have them as part of my family.

now, for their sake, i have to move on. i cant bear to let ppl see me sad and suffering. i want to let them see the old Dee again. OH. No. Let them see, Dian Farini again, which, i have a long2 way to search for her.

hmm.. i guess.. even though i lost something, some things will never change.