shiteyed

haha.. u noe i noe lah eh.

fate was pulling our leg. just in front of me and i didnt even see you! aiyo.. wad's worse was that i was looking out seh.. see lah.. how shiteyed i am. nyehh2... my eyes are getting potek arrh. haha..

today, didnt go school again. woke up at 10 plus. then msn wif Boi... And went to meet him at 2 plus and we watched Nacho Libre @ Cineleisure. And then, went to sch for a while den went home. yea.. tts all lah.

haiz..

dear God,

i have been a very bad bad girl. i am so confused right now. i chatted wif an old contact who has been on my msn for a long time but never chat wif him. well, he's my adek angkat Fadli Lili. And he asked me how i was. And i said i was okay.

And than, the next thing i knew, i was telling him every single shit that has been happening in my life. and i nearly cried but i didnt. it makes my life seem sooo pathetic when i told him.

haiz.. it's not as if i have anyone to listen to my problems right? i mean, i listen to ppl's problems and i make ppl feel happy. but deep inside, i'm crying each and everytime coz my life is in a mess right now. i'm not as strong as they think i am.

and then, Lili sort of lectured me. Imagine arr adek lecture kakak. Haiz. it's really that bad.

haiz..

someone pls save me from me.

sorry i had to be jiwang tonite.

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i miss u so. i hope u're happy now. sometimes my heart cries thinking abt those times we spent together. haiz..

and as for you, i'll answer ur qn now.

"yes i had feelings for you. eversince the day we got close. if u've read wad i've written here, den u would already noe and i shldnt be explaining. u noe? haha."


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