Hmmm

Sigh... Actually i have no idea wad to type... Shucks... But feeling abit down tho... Dunno abt wad but i'm feelin depressed... Maybe abt him, i'm not sure... haizz... i came up with these 2 phrases.. And I ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT!

IF ONLY THE MIND CAN DECEIVE THE HEART..

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MATTERS OF THE HEART TO WHO SHALL I IMPART

i noe the first one is a fragment.. but who cares.. i love it.. haha... i want to compose a poem but i just cant figure out how to start.. heez... crappy me... i came up with this on my way home from sch...

I just don't wanna know

How it'll be like to let you go

Leaving me helpless and low

Knowing that your love will never again show

Baby with you I learnt to be

A spirit that is ever carefree

The tender love that u have showered to me

Can never be replaced by what the heart can see

Matters of the heart

To who shall I impart

When our sights will forever be apart

Then i know the hurt is so hard

Well, maybe the last part is a bit cheesy.. haiz... But i dunno y i feel like poetic these few days.. Haiz..

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Yesterday was crappy man at work.. Ergh... Was placed at Costa Sands the whole day and it was super boring... But the fun came at night coz the queue to Harbourfront was freaking long.. Haha...Up till half of the roundabout... Sheeesh... Damn long sia... Haiz... Nv see Shulhul already sia for so long.. Wonder how's he.. hmm... I miss my monorail peeps.. Wonder where they are nw... Aiman, Ismail, Hasyer, Hairi, Zuraidah, Razak and Ganesan are all not working in Sentosa... Shucks... They're the greatest buncha ppl i noe.. ehehe... had fun working with them.. and of coz... monorail is waaaaaay better den marshall... Haiz... *sobz*

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Heez.... Recently got to noe dis guy from ITE Yishun.. Ashrul's fren actually... name's Yat.. hehe... He's ok laa.. Like Ash also.. hmm... but of coz, only treat him as a fren arr...

My sweetie hunny is really important to me k... i dun think i can adapt to anybody else if ever i broke up with him... Sometimes i wonder.. Why do i still cling to him after all the hurt and pain that he's given me? It's not because of his looks that made me stay, or his money or even his popularity... Trust me.. It's definitely NOT because of these things... Its just, i realise that in a way, he guides me through terrible times I had with my family and advices me when i'm in need of it.. I asked him: "Y do u love me?" and he said: "you gave me hope in everything i do." and really, he gave me a lot of hope to go through difficult times... Honesty, trust, commitment... tts wad he wants in a girl.. i dunno if i have fulfilled those.. all i noe, is that he has fulfilled mine... i wanted a guy who can always be there when i needed him and also guide me in my lost life.. Even b4 we stead, i told him that and he's always been there for me and helped me alot in life.. and i nv told him this one criteria that i wanted that i cant find in everyother guy... it's acually: can contol me when i'm over my limits... sighh... he just called and came up with this stupid, crazy, out of his belo mind and whatever other freakin stuff!!!! aaacckzz!! quite shocked when he said that.. coz i was typing this and he said that.., haiz... abt the deal again.... haiyooo...... RIDICULOUS IDEA BABY!!!

haizzz... gtg.. will update soon......